In Search Of

After receiving unexpected news about her biological mother, Amy must confront how she truly feels about her adoption, her history, and self-identity.

A colorful journey into the mind of Amy, an average 20-something young woman living in New York City. There doesn’t seem to be much that’s extraordinary about Amy – except one thing. Amy is adopted. And until recently, she never wanted to meet her biological family. However, her birth-mother has actually been looking for her – for years. If that wasn’t enough to send someone reeling, Amy just received more unexpected news about her birth-mother, forcing Amy to confront how she truly feels about her adoption, her history, and self-identity. While on the outside she may seem just like your average Millennial, on the inside her thoughts, emotions, fears, and hopes take shape in bright, colorful movement and dance. Perhaps Amy is not so average after all.

*All talent and primary crew on this film identify as women or non-binary.

Running Time

Genre – Drama

Amy: Kate Moran
Elizabeth: Shay Wisniewski
Dancer : Quanda Johnson
Dancer : Sara Emiko Chan
Dancer : Nikita Chaudhry
Dancer : Ricky Soberano

writer/director: Kate Moran
co-director and choreography: Allison Brzezinski
art director / wardrobe: Kelly Dearborn
editor: Kate Moran, David C. Monk
director of photographer: Pati Amoroso
1st assistant camera: Sohailla Mahjour
2nd assistant camera: Kay Scinto
sound engineer: Kym Lukacs
acting coach: Taylor Tobin
hair and make-up: Rachel Mazza
production assistant: Silvana Manzur
title animation: Alex Wiehl
drone pilot: Mark Dearborn
with music by Mystic Lotus Music and Emmett Cooke

Director Statement

As a Korean American adoptee myself, this film is very precious to me for many reasons. In film, we don’t often hear of adoption. And when we do, it’s usually told from the perspective of adoptive parents or birthmothers, and can be heavily sentimental. But the truth about adoption is complicated. It’s painful, it’s real, and it affects thousands of people across the world. I believe that more adoptees’ stories need to be told, from their perspectives – and all of the ugly, angry, and uncomfortable emotions that may come along with it.

Because in the end, we all resonate with feelings of loss and loneliness. We all wonder what came before us, and how much of that matters. We all just want our Mother to take us in her arms and make us feel safe. So that’s why I made this film, with a brilliant cast and crew of all women and non-binary artists, and want to share it with the world – to help us all feel a little less lonely.